I had a dream that I kept waking up over and over again...I fell asleep in the crevice between the bed and the wall... In the first dream sequence, I was being pulled on a bed, which was a college bed, out of the crevice to the edge of the bed, so that I would fall off, and I couldn't move. It was scary, and I tried to scream, but I couldn't scream, I just couldn't make any desperate screams, even though I tried. I then woke up, in real life, and said it was a nightmare, and then went back to sleep. In this part of the dream sequence, I met my original character, Takai. Takai is an undead yokai who is unfathomably beautiful and good looking...he is someone who I love deeply... I met him, and I began turning into him and becoming him. I kept trying to turn into Takai over and over again, and I loved him. I tried to turn into him in secret, in the bathroom, to try to trick people, or to try to be covert, and I got in trouble...so I decided to just openly be him, I guess...and everyone thought that was fine, but they still possibly didn't know that I was Takai? Anyway, he met up with me and we became "twins" of sort, although I had trouble turning into him all the way, much of the time. I said he was based off of my soulmate, Scaramouche, from Genshin Impact, and that he was DEEPLY important to me. I also saw my other original character I love, Ichigo...but he turned into a pink Tigger, from Winnie the Pooh, and I didn't like him very much...and I left him at that point and didn't get to see him for the rest of the dream. Honestly, he disturbed me and I was not happy. I also tried to find my other original character I love, Marcus, and he kept scaring me...he was behind doors and he kept growling and barking and it was really scary... I was shocked because he is a really nice person, and he's supposed to be kind to me...so I didn't know why he did that... Ichigo and Marcus are friends, so it was weird that they were both disturbing... My characters from my other series, Neurotic Kismet, were much better and kinder to me... I kept trying to do something...they said that I was their God, and every time I said something about my original characters, such as their lore mattered and they needed to heed what I said about them, they said religiously, "obey the lore" or something. Anyway, they mentioned my character, Davet, who was going to do some fighting against a character that maybe attacked me for no reason...and his description as a character was "let's see if this crazy fallen angel can be useful" or something... My other character, who I am very close to, was there as well, Aito-kun, and I fell deeply in love with him...he was so strong, he took his turn in a turn based fighting style game fight, defending me with Davet, well he was the first in line, and he was so strong that no one else had to fight, I think...he is a mute, but he got a paper from somewhere, an envelope, and I opened a window for him, and he hit the person he was fighting with the envelope and she went flying out the window and was defeated, leaving me head over heels in love with Aito-kun...who is an angel... I woke up, again, at that point, and I have a pillow of Aito-kun and I cuddled him and kissed him, feeling fluffy and buoyant, and brought over my Takai pillow and kissed him, too... I went back to bed and entered another dream cycle... Marcus barked a bit more, then appeared as a literal wolf for some reason, on all four legs, and then booped into the form of himself, which looked kind and happy, possibly, and really well drawn...but I was confused, I guess... In one point of the story, they pretended to lock me away and torture me for some reason, but they wanted to see what was really going on in the room where I was being tortured, which was obscured, and they put a hole in the blockage and you could see into the room that it was Spongebob, pretending to be me being tortured so that I could live happily, playing cards with Mister Krabs with a cardboard silhouette of "Spongebob's father" who had "just been revealed" for some reason... I then entered another dream cycle where I was God, or something and I was in charge of managing the universe, and every time something got pulled off of my dress from behind, or I died, the universe ended and I had to start it again.
Your dream is a rich tapestry woven with intricate themes of identity, power, fear, and love. Let's break down the various elements and their potential meanings.
The experience of waking up repeatedly within your dream indicates a sense of being trapped in a cycle—whether it's in your waking life or within your own psyche. This recurring theme suggests feelings of anxiety or discomfort that you are unable to escape. The crevice between the bed and the wall symbolizes a place of confinement, where you feel stuck or unable to express yourself fully.
The sequence where you're being pulled on the bed, unable to scream, highlights a feeling of helplessness or loss of control. This suggests internal struggles you may be facing. Being trapped within the dream could symbolize real-life situations where you feel you can't voice your needs or desires, reflecting an emotional climax or crisis.
Takai represents a deep and cherished connection, possibly symbolizing qualities you admire or wish to integrate into yourself. The act of trying to transform into Takai points to a desire for acceptance, validation, or perhaps a longing to embody certain aspects of love or beauty associated with this character. Transforming in secret reflects anxiety around your identity, possibly indicating that you fear how others might perceive your true self.
The struggle to become Takai openly highlights a shift in your relationship with self-acceptance; it suggests that, while you yearn to express this aspect of yourself, you're navigating the fear of rejection or misunderstanding by others.
The presence of Ichigo, who morphs into an unsettling pink Tigger, and the frightening behavior of Marcus, bring forth feelings of confusion and distrust surrounding relationships. Both characters turning into sources of discomfort might indicate struggles with certain friendships or aspects of yourself that impact your emotional well-being. Maybe you're processing feelings of betrayal or unpredictability in people you thought were kind, linking back to experiences where affection turned into confusion.
The supportive characters from your other series represent a nurturing side of your creativity and possibly reflect how you feel in your artistic endeavors. Being called "God" by your characters may reflect feelings of control and power within your creative world, highlighting your role as a creator and guiding force over the lore and destinies of your characters.
Your love for Aito-kun, who embodies strength and protection, reflects a deep yearning for safety and emotional support. His mute nature might symbolize a desire for understanding without words—an intrinsic bond that transcends verbal communication. The turn-based fight signifies planning and strategy in navigating your emotional life, showing that you desire partnerships where you feel secure and empowered.
The bizarre visuals, such as the playful torture scene with SpongeBob, suggest that your subconscious is processing stress and anxiety through humor—a coping strategy to explore uncomfortable themes of power dynamics and perceived helplessness. It enlightens the idea that even in vulnerability, there’s a spark of humor or absurdity present in your life.
Finally, your dream transitioning into a God-like role signifies a journey of self-discovery and empowerment. It highlights that managing your universe, though overwhelming, suggests that with great power comes the responsibility to care for your emotional state and creativity.
Overall, this dream reflects a complex interplay of your self-perception, your relationships, your creativity, and your emotional challenges. At its core, it reveals a profound yearning for clarity in your identity and connection with others while navigating feelings of fear and love. Engage with these characters and themes through your art and writing as they may provide insight into your real-life emotions and experiences.